I applied for a job.
A job that is not in a school.
I feel crazy guilty.
But I don't think 10 hours a week is gonna cut it for me.
I am the most impatient person in the world.
My chest hurts.
In this summer of me not working, we have added to our debt balance $9,000.00.
Just to pay down that portion, NOT INCLUDING the $6,000 that we 'started' with will take 24.5 paycheques.
I am not even in school working for that many paycheques.
I feel like barfing.
My dream needs to be put on hold once again.
I guess it will be best for me to get the job I applied for. Chances are that I won't advance within the school system this year. It is very unlikely.
I always think I will get every job I apply for.
It seems to work everywhere except the school board. I applied to 45 school board jobs in June. Many I was overqualified for. I got one interview and then was dismissed from the selection for lack of experience.
Am I really gonna do this? Am I really going to choose money and benefits over my dreams?
I think I have to.
O how I wish life could be smooth again...